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i feel.. odd. i want to be back in my bed with my josh. instead, i'm off to school.

i think it all started with me beating the cat. well, i didn't really beat her - i fwapped her on her butt for attacking the other kitty. and she's fine - but i always feel guilty about scolding the cats..

and then, my minds been wandering.. and i've been thinking, which is never a good combo this early in the morning alone. (laugh)

you know how there are some things, you think about - and then think - i wouldn't be able to handle that? (regardless of whether or not you actually would?) yeah, i'm there. and part of me is afraid that somehting like that is wanted.. but i know i;m being silly. pbblt.

I like to fix things. things, and stuff for people. solve their problems. it makes me feel useful, and happy. a solution finder, is what i like to be. and i think that it's rather upsetting, sometimes, when i can't. Naturally, there are some things that you just don't mess with. some things you don't *want* to try and solve, or things that they should really solve themselves, like personal issues. and typically, if you want someone to listen, i am there for those, as well. but i can't solve them. (look, mom, i have limits! :) ) but other things, more simple things.. perhaps things by way of connection? like, oh, you need that? well, i know this guy here, and .. blah blah blah..

hmm.. off i go to get dressed and stuff, i think - as i have to leave very very soon..

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finished my oral report. started on my book report, made copies - am now going to walmart to get a doll with no face and removable hair. :)