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i keep thinking of people that I know are in ny, or whose families are. people I didn't think about yesterday.. i don't think most of them would have been near anything..

i keep hearing about wombat related people who haven't been heard from. and I cry, every time.

I know I am going to go to school this morning, and there are going to be people there who have lost people and who are still in shock. I am grateful that they gave us yesterday as a half day, but am wondering how they expect us to function today?

and, if the planes start up again at noon, are we looking at more of this? josh says not.

but, according to someone's journal i read, there are people calling from the wtc, so there are people in there who are alive, which is good.

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okay, so i am so pissed that I am shaking..

and no, it's not about a world or us threatening event!

I just found out that Judy is waiting to grade my couture until she gets the other graduate students - and I have no idea when that will be, other than by december 18th. motherfuckers. that pisses me off.

well, no.. that's just judy. it doesn't piss me off - what pisses me off is that i sent her an email, and she can't take the fucking time to email me back and tell me this.. i found out through another graduate student. fuck her, and UNC.

I want to find out the guidelines for grading incompletes and such, and throw them in her face. This *really* irks me. I want that couture - it's mine. I worked hard on it, and want it to put back in my portfolio and to bring down here and show off. and she's being a a slack ass bitch about it, and not grading it, when she has the spare time (and yes, I do know that she does - they are only working 1 day a week in the afternoon - she could totally have this done in a week, or definately by now, since she's had it for a month.)

i am overreacting, I am sure. and I don't particularly care right now. I want to be done with her. and with unc - i don't want them to be able to affect me anymore. damn them. or damn me?

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grr grr grr... I can't find any limitations on how soon after you turn in your project the faculty has to grade it.. grr.. i don't know who to call or where to look..

and if i force this issue, then she'll take it out on my grade.

time to go and deal with something that I can deal with - my book report.

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"so take me down
on rhythm dancing
take me up on my disease
fill my coffecup with riddles
when i find it hard to speak
bring your colors to my canvas
when my inspirations done"
-soul miners daughter

believe it or not, my soul healing music. i can't tell you how many times i listened to this in chapel hill, and it shocked me to find the need for it again here..

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i had to turn down the opportunity to work wardrobe for aerosmith! ack!