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i feel sick.

ugh. i have too much to do, and no idea when i am going to so it, unfortunately. rich hasn't responded to my email, and all i really wat to do is get my show done, and get the shakespeare show done, and have that be it, but i am so fucking tired. my mom caled last night, around midnight, and i chatted with her a bit, but was exhausted,

that's my theme. exhaustion. and timm keeps asking for more, and the girls didn't bring shoes like they were supposed to, so i swear i'm just gong to go out and buy them all china shoes, if i can't pull them i alternate between caring, and wanting it to be right, and just wanting it to be over, dammit. ok. i'm off to get ready to drive to the tech house. again, ugh.

update

so for some reason, i feel better today. i talked to rich in person, and i think that that helped. i also went to rehearsal, got some fittings done, pulled some shoes, andbought some fabric (woohoo). so yay for me. i thin i'm building alice, after all, and i came up with a way to do that, so we'll see what happens. i hope i have time to, but i *think* i will. it's looking like if i leave, i'll have to come back - but it's still two weeks away, in air conditioning. and if i come back - i'll see tracie for her birthday, which i think would make her happy. although probably bewilder her parents as to why anyone would drive from ga to illinois. hee.