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okay. jenny didn't come in today - she was sick with a fever and she threw up for 12 hours on the plane. ick. so I did not have to deal with her, which was pretty good. started on my couture again (my incomplete class, which it's my goalk to finish by spring break, in two weeks). granted, i only did a little bitty thing, but it's better than nothing, and i did work on my draping homework for three hours, and then grade papers for 45 minutes, soi was up atthe school a good bit tonihgt. and i am trying to go in early tomorrow morning (every morning this week, actually) and then i will be up there again tomorrow night, i think, so that i can get close to caught up on my tailored jacket - i am consistently a day behind now, and i will be father than that if i don't get my butt moving on the lapels. plus, my josh comes up next week, and i don't want to spend all of my time up at the school while he is here, so the less behind i am the better. :)
i am sorry that i don't get to go out with everyone - i could *really* use some time out from school, but i feel so overwhelmed currently that if i do stop, there's a voice in my head muttering to me about all the stuff i have to do still, so it's not exactly relaxing. I am trying my best to get caught up, but there is so much.. ohwell. at least i am trying! :) i long for either undergard again or a real job - one that ends when you stop working!
i am off to read for a little while (for pleasure, even though it should be costume history and catching up on my reading for the test next thursday ack!) and then to call my josh and say goodnight, so that i may get up in 6 hours or so.

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so i am sitting inthe shopo today, listening to some tapes i found while cleaning my old room at my dad's house.. one of the tapes was a thistle and shamrock compilation (well, two were, really, but listen. :) ) that Cat & Jen had made - Jenn, really, not cat, i s'pose. and it made me think of them, and how they used to be halfway decent people, and how i missed having the old cat and jenn around. of course, now not only are they not cat AND jenn, rather, cat and aislinn, and then jenn, but they also aren't halfway decent people! but i've been rather angry with them all this time, and i have finally realized that not only do i miss having them around (or friend like they used to be) but I hope for the best for them - mainly, that they overcome their obstacles, and become decent people again.
and in cleaning out my room, it made me remember so many things from when i lived at home - i found my gwen books, and pictures, and remembered high school and everyhing. and lately, i just haven't taken the time to remember any of that stuff, and it's all stuff that made me what i am, so i've accepted it back into me, and made it a part of me again. yay for me.
i will be able to find joy in everyday things again! I did today, and yesterday, and i am sure i will tomorrow.

the update with jenny - everything went well today, and i think it's because we didn't actually work, so there was not conflict between us - we didn't really talk, even. We will see how it goes - but, hey, one day down! :)