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so i took my family with me to josh's family's fourth of july party thing today. this morning, i was completely stressed out and thinking what a bad idea it was. turns out i get some of my avoidant tendencies from my family. (i can hear my josh saying "tell me something i didn't know") so we go, and i insist on driving (don't you want to let your father drive? they ask. no, i reply. i ask - do you want to take a valium? :) they offer me juice - i think it was drugged. )
so i take them there, and we, wonder of wonders, get ther before when i had planned to be there by about 5 minutes, even with the traffic from hell and driving a different way. (yay!) and they get along with josh's fam, josh's fam gets along with them - i was still stressed. josh's fam offers me alcohol - i decline. :) my family is happy - i drive them back home. slight mishap (wrong turn) but all is well. we get home ( to their house) and i hear - "you're a good driver". WHAT? from my crazy family, who i never expected to hear that from? I mean, sure, i cleane out myh car. and sure, i even washed it before i went over there today. but it was crazy - i didn't expect them to say that, it made the day completely worth it - all the stress and the four plus hours of driving (from athens to decatur, from decatur to jackson lake and reverse.) worth it. my family had surprised me.

i am tired. plans tomorrow are for the fleamarket, if we wake up before the main part ofd te heat (my theory, not josh's) and for a matinee movie of some sort.. not sure what - atlantis, tomb raider, a.i., the fast and the furious.. i am thinking not tomb raider, but the rest are a toss up. i guess it will be whichever is playing at an appropriate time.

didn't make it into atlanta tonight - wanted to go out, but wasn;t up for another 3 hours of driving. so instead, we went to wally world.. and i got baby doll t-shirts for $6 apiece - they have black, white, redm grey, purpe, blue... lots of colors. i really like baby doll t's, ad i think i left my death one at my mom's, but she hasn't mentioned it yet.(sigh)maybe she'll find it soon.

away with me..

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so i finally finished my notecards. all three hundred odd of them or so.

we went and saw kiss of the dragon today. it was a bit much in the violence area for me, but it was good overall. i feel the need for jet li to pick up a gun and blow someones head off during it, and that, of course, didn't happen.

i talked to my dad, about medicine costs and gre stuff, etc , and he seemed displeased - i can't say as that i blame him, as it is a lot of money. of course, i hardly think that paying $100 for $500 worth of medicine is that bad, but i understand that i am costing him an awful lot right now. of course, again, he *is* the one that insisted i go to all the doctors and "get whatever you need".. so i got contacts that i will actually be able to see out of (haven't worn contacts for 6+ months, because i couldn't see well out of them due to astigmatism) and yes, i did go to the dentist, and i do have cavities, and i am getting them filled, and it does cost a lot of money. i'm sorry. he didn't have to pay for the gre..

i am hoping that i will get into grad school, and i'll get their assistantship - it would work out to about $800 a month, i think, which is a lot more than I get now (about $300 a month more), and i would have less rent/expenses, because i would be living with josh, and splitting costs on things. of course, we would have cable, but other than that, i don't think we'd have anything that i don't have to pay for currently. i might even be able to start paying back my student loans! or maybe avoid getting many more of them, which would rock. i hate owing this much money. of course, i can't decide which i hate more - owing this much money, or taking money from my dad.. hmm..

i still don't have my picture from the slide that i need to finish up my portfolio (i also need pictures from north carolina, and to dry clean some stuff), and apparent;y, they don't know when it will be in. i am going to call them tomorrow, to see what's going on.. they should at least be able to track it and figure out where it is. i also hope to get in touch with my teacher, in order to find out about a possible interview, hopefully next week, but whenever would be good. (as long as it isn't this week)
driving home tomorrow.