my review and decisions...
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needlegrrlSo i realized that I never really talked about my end of the semester review, or my subsequent decisions. So here it is -
I was basically told that i wasn't doing well, nothing i didn't already know. i was told that if i did well in costume history, i was looking at
2 LPs, or Low Passes.. of which, i am allowed three before i am kicked out of school, and have to repay the money that they have given me. ick.
I was told that my options were as follows - come back in the fall, with an assistantship, and just do better; come back in the fall without an assistantship
and thus have less production responsibilities and no papers to grade, and more time to focus on my schoolwork; and to leave a a year or more and work professionally, in order
to get my remedial skills up to par. Judy says that if I come back in the fall, she doesn't see me as doing well - meaning i would probably get another low pass
and thus, get kicked out. this being after josh would have moved to the area.
so my decision is, so far - to move in august, when my lease is up. I agree with Judy - I need to know more, and i need more experience. I don't think i could have
gone out and gotten that experience with my skills at the level they were a yar ago, but at this point, i am confident in myself.
I am having a great time in st louis, which means i will have opera experience, i already have professional theatre experience, and i have some
ballet experience from UNC, and i will be working on more this summer, as i finish up my incomplete, which is couture. I will have to redo a good number of my samples, so that i don't
get a low pass in it, as well.
My hope is to work, and to take classes - maybe find somewhere with some draping and flat pattern classes, so that I can get p to par on those, as I seem to have a hard time learning from judy.
the majority of the semester, i felt like i was holding up the class.
I am also considering looking into fashion design, another costume tech grad school, or a mixed design/technology grad school.
So, if anyone hears of any theatre jobs in atlanta, let me know. :) I need to fnd somewhere that i can work, and that josh can work. There is quite a bit of pressure on me, as josh basically said -
hurry up and find somewhere to work, so that I know where to apply. Well, at least i don't have school stress right now!
on a different note, i got to cook today! :) I got to make bronzed chicken and saffron rice. it was yummy.
my skin is almost moisturized... my doctor suggested using a baby oil, so i got this babyoil gel thing, and it's weird, not havin really dry skin all the time,
but awesome with the whole moisture thing.. my goal is to get semi-tan this summer - at least not glaringly white. i don't want my legs to reflect sunlight anymore. :)
I am so glad that my computer is working. Josh is going to send me a care package with stuff like my palm software, etc. yay! i've never really been anywhere to get care packages before!
oh - if anyone needs to get in touch with me, my number up here is on my voicemail in chapel hill. you can also email me.
i read a book since sunday. :) and i started another today. i am so excited. they need to hurry up and get me my id card, though, so i can walk to th public library and get some more. i got to watch buffy
tonight, and angl, too. they were both really interesting, although i think angel is starting to go over the edge.
I have had time for things again, lately, and remembered who i was, and the things that i enoyed doing.
this past year at grad school has been pretty hellish - esp this semester, where i didn't feel like i had time for anything, not even breathing. I remembered things i liked to do, and wanted to learn to do -
like photgraphy, an flash animation, and more computer stuff. i lik to sew for myself and others, and i love to cook, and especially bake. i like to go for walks, and garden.. pretty much none of this was able to be done
while i was in grad school, so i think i need to find another option - maybe getting instate and taking classes part time or something.. i don't know, but this no time for nything for three years is not going to cut it - i don't
want to let it take over my life. i like my life, and don't want to put verything on hold simply for a degree.. make ny sense?
my only worry currently (well, besides the whole transition from student to real wold, which i wasn't planning on making for another two years or so!) is where josh and
i can both work and be happy.. i hear canada is fun. :)
i'll look around, though - maybe i can find something on one of the job websites, and i need to look at artsearch and such, too.
i love this getting to sleep thing. :) although i could wish my josh was here, and i have been doing heinous alterations at work. I felt like i was being the slowest person in the world,
but they reassured me today that I wasn't being. the difference between here and chapel hill is amazing - but i shoud just get over it. :) i did learn something in tailoring class, thouhg, and i used it today - the proper way to hem
men's sleeve sin a talored jacket. :)
josh called yesterday and asked how my day was, and i told him wonderful. i don't think he's heard that in about a year. which is another thing that kind of decides me on the whole unc as grad school thing - i didn' enjoy my life.
most days, i hated it. but i enjoy working. so it's not that i don't enjoy theatre. it's that i didn't enjoy it at UNC!
I was basically told that i wasn't doing well, nothing i didn't already know. i was told that if i did well in costume history, i was looking at
2 LPs, or Low Passes.. of which, i am allowed three before i am kicked out of school, and have to repay the money that they have given me. ick.
I was told that my options were as follows - come back in the fall, with an assistantship, and just do better; come back in the fall without an assistantship
and thus have less production responsibilities and no papers to grade, and more time to focus on my schoolwork; and to leave a a year or more and work professionally, in order
to get my remedial skills up to par. Judy says that if I come back in the fall, she doesn't see me as doing well - meaning i would probably get another low pass
and thus, get kicked out. this being after josh would have moved to the area.
so my decision is, so far - to move in august, when my lease is up. I agree with Judy - I need to know more, and i need more experience. I don't think i could have
gone out and gotten that experience with my skills at the level they were a yar ago, but at this point, i am confident in myself.
I am having a great time in st louis, which means i will have opera experience, i already have professional theatre experience, and i have some
ballet experience from UNC, and i will be working on more this summer, as i finish up my incomplete, which is couture. I will have to redo a good number of my samples, so that i don't
get a low pass in it, as well.
My hope is to work, and to take classes - maybe find somewhere with some draping and flat pattern classes, so that I can get p to par on those, as I seem to have a hard time learning from judy.
the majority of the semester, i felt like i was holding up the class.
I am also considering looking into fashion design, another costume tech grad school, or a mixed design/technology grad school.
So, if anyone hears of any theatre jobs in atlanta, let me know. :) I need to fnd somewhere that i can work, and that josh can work. There is quite a bit of pressure on me, as josh basically said -
hurry up and find somewhere to work, so that I know where to apply.
on a different note, i got to cook today! :) I got to make bronzed chicken and saffron rice. it was yummy.
my skin is almost moisturized... my doctor suggested using a baby oil, so i got this babyoil gel thing, and it's weird, not havin really dry skin all the time,
but awesome with the whole moisture thing.. my goal is to get semi-tan this summer - at least not glaringly white. i don't want my legs to reflect sunlight anymore. :)
I am so glad that my computer is working. Josh is going to send me a care package with stuff like my palm software, etc. yay! i've never really been anywhere to get care packages before!
oh - if anyone needs to get in touch with me, my number up here is on my voicemail in chapel hill. you can also email me.
i read a book since sunday. :) and i started another today. i am so excited. they need to hurry up and get me my id card, though, so i can walk to th public library and get some more. i got to watch buffy
tonight, and angl, too. they were both really interesting, although i think angel is starting to go over the edge.
I have had time for things again, lately, and remembered who i was, and the things that i enoyed doing.
this past year at grad school has been pretty hellish - esp this semester, where i didn't feel like i had time for anything, not even breathing. I remembered things i liked to do, and wanted to learn to do -
like photgraphy, an flash animation, and more computer stuff. i lik to sew for myself and others, and i love to cook, and especially bake. i like to go for walks, and garden.. pretty much none of this was able to be done
while i was in grad school, so i think i need to find another option - maybe getting instate and taking classes part time or something.. i don't know, but this no time for nything for three years is not going to cut it - i don't
want to let it take over my life. i like my life, and don't want to put verything on hold simply for a degree.. make ny sense?
my only worry currently (well, besides the whole transition from student to real wold, which i wasn't planning on making for another two years or so!) is where josh and
i can both work and be happy.. i hear canada is fun. :)
i'll look around, though - maybe i can find something on one of the job websites, and i need to look at artsearch and such, too.
i love this getting to sleep thing. :) although i could wish my josh was here, and i have been doing heinous alterations at work. I felt like i was being the slowest person in the world,
but they reassured me today that I wasn't being. the difference between here and chapel hill is amazing - but i shoud just get over it. :) i did learn something in tailoring class, thouhg, and i used it today - the proper way to hem
men's sleeve sin a talored jacket. :)
josh called yesterday and asked how my day was, and i told him wonderful. i don't think he's heard that in about a year. which is another thing that kind of decides me on the whole unc as grad school thing - i didn' enjoy my life.
most days, i hated it. but i enjoy working. so it's not that i don't enjoy theatre. it's that i didn't enjoy it at UNC!
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Yay
Bronze chicken and safron rice ... yummy.
I'm glad you have time for yourself.
OK, I am not meant to make rational comments in the morning.